Madame Moonflower

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When things get tough, pull back, baby.

Dear Friends,

For all my preaching about letting go of regrets and churning thoughts, I found myself regretting and churning just the same this past week. Second guessing choices, examining relationships, and trying to find my center while reeling from the rapid ways in which things have changed over the week. Today, though. Today I took a deep breath, did some yoga, got my hair done by my good friend Leni Russ, and that along with the 13 Moon Priestess Circle yesterday, and attending the lovely A Place to Call Home event last night, I had a couple of realizations that have helped me regain my perspective:

My work is bigger than me as a person. While most people see me as the owner of the Cult of Gemini, I know that I am a shepherd of this very alive and sentient being, which has been co-created by us all. It has its own will and desires, and sometimes I forget that. So often, I try to do "it all." I forget to ask for help, or offer a prayer to the Goddess, and ask for guidance. I analyze all the data, strategize how things could go, then pick the best option from my limited mind. This work isn't about me figuring it out. It's about me emptying, then listening.

She, the Cult, tells me what it is that is needed when I settle myself and hear her. Sometimes my listening results in messages that I don't personally want to receive. I've got to get better about receiving them anyway. Then acting on them in a timely manner, rather than waiting for the message to change. If I act when inspired, the outcomes are much better. When I think I know better, or don't hear what's being asked, things can go bad, and quick.

Most importantly, I've realized (remembered) that it's too late to regret what choices I've made. I'm here now in the aftermath of whatever has happened, good, bad, or indifferent. Until I'm ready to accept where I am, there is no way forward. I believe the Divine has plans for us all, and we usually don't get to know what they are. We are part of a web of golden threads, and although our threads can be shaken by the happenings of other threads, all we can do is follow our path on the web. Trust is the key. Trusting that each step IS in the right direction.

So here in the tender space of realization, of trust, and of love, we are. As the days shorten, and the air cools, all we can do is be. My next step? Slow down, breath, and ask. Ask for guidance, ask for help, and be grateful for all of it. If this Scorpio season has been putting you through the paces, we'd love to hear your story. Hit reply and share with us.

With love,
Ginger